This morning (yes, it's only been 2 hours since my baby woke up) I am at my limit!!!!
I am frustrated to the max with him. He has almost done nothing but cry, moan, and whine all morning! Some days I can handle it. I just scoop him up and do whatever it takes to get him to stop. But this morning I had things to do. I sat him in his highchair for his bottle and cereal and when he was done I got up to put dishes in the dishwasher, load up his diaper bag, and hoping to do a host of other things. The WHOLE time he was in his highchair he moaned, whined and cried. I lost it! What does that mean? Well my blood pressure went through the roof, I thought my head was going to explode from so much frustration and I yelled "STOP"!!! He did stop and looked at me like "are you yelling at me? are you mad at me?" and then proceeded to cry and moan and whine.
I picked him up and decided to put him to bed. I gave him a pacifier and held him for a while until he was ready to sleep. I put him down in his crib and he was out. Poor thing was just so tired he couldn't handle it anymore.
It was then that I cried. Uncontrollable crying. How could I yell at my baby? Why couldn't I just stop and figure out what he needed? And why can't he just let me get a few things done during the day without being SO DEMANDING?!?!?
Granted it will be "that time of the month" in a day or so. Maybe I can blame it on the hormones? But this part of being his mommy becomes too hard sometimes.